Commitments

After no results on the scale the last month and a half - I had a mini melt down and took a "vacation" from working out...sort of!  I have been still trying to run outside and eating "OK". 


My daughters' softball season started last week and she has two practices during the week which TOTALLY threw off my workout schedule and meals!  That coupled with my frustration on the scale caused me to eat my emotions last Saturday for the first time in a long time.  I felt like shit the next day!  But it left me to start looking at what I have been doing, what has been working, what hasn't and exploring other methods.

The first thing I KNOW I MUST DO is TRACK!  No, not running track...but tracking my food!  I have about 20 excuses as to why I don't do it...mainly I don't want to live my life tracking what I eat and wanted to be able to do this with out doing so....but, in the end I think I have not been eating ENOUGH.  Weird, right!!!!  I feel like all I do is eat....but calorie wise it is not enough.  I also know I have not been eating enough protein. 

Second, I need more water!  I try really hard to drink water...but I hate water!  No taste at all....So, I am going to measure out exactly how much I need to be drinking and force myself to drink it all....

Third, I need to push myself in my workouts more and I think I need more of a routine...not just "Oh, I will do this today...."  So, again I need to start PLANNING my workouts in more detail a week at a time at least!

Finally....I need to stick with this shit!  I have a bad habit of not finishing things (except for wine, I can finish a bottle of wine!)  I am literally going to start planning out my entire life a week at a time - hour for hour - and hang it up where I can see it!!!!!  My ADD doesn't allow for me to track shit in my head anymore...I forget things left and right and don't remember until I am about to fall asleep...and lets face it, once my ass is in bed the only thing that will get me up is either A) John Rzeznik nekkid at my door or B) my house is on fire....

So, I am committing to do the following for the Month of April...
        1)  Meal Planning for the week each Friday for the upcoming week (M-Sun)
        2)  Workout Planning for the week each Friday for the upcoming week
        3)  Before & After pictures & measurements (I promise to post these results )
        4)  Consume between 1700 - 2100 calories/day and drink 112 oz. of water/day
        5)  Post at least once a week to my blog!!!!

I will end on a positive note:

The old me would not have just taken a "vacation" - I would have quit and gained the 25 pounds back that I worked so hard to lose!  So I deserve a pat on the back for not giving up!  We all get to that point where we want to give up....sometimes it might take longer to evaluate what is going wrong...but we need to just keep moving forward! 

Also, I was looking through some IG pics from December and I noticed that it took me almost 20 minutes to do a mile....I think my mile is currently at 15 min (on a good day) now...I am proud of that 5 minutes I have shaved off because I am NOT a runner, my body was not designed for running...I struggle with my asthma EVERY TIME I GO OUTSIDE to run, I have even cried on a run because I was so frustrated with my body for not letting me do what my mind wants me to do....I do need to keep pushing myself because I do get a little freaked out when I get an attack and tend to talk myself out of a lot of the run or modifying what I set out to do...I need to STOP that and DO WHAT I SAY I AM GOING TO DO...it is OKAY if I need to walk.  I just need to only walk until I catch my breath and then START RUNNING AGAIN!  I want to be able to run a WHOLE MILE with out stopping.  I don't even care about the time!

I GOT THIS!


Have a Fabulous Friday Loves!