Who runs that fast?

I have been trying to "run" for almost 4 months now...and I just feel like I am not getting anywhere.  I mean, I see some improvement but for some reason I feel like I should be farther along. 

I went to the gym last night and ran on the treadmill for the first time in 3 weeks.  And I am sure I sound like a broken record with this...but I just couldn't breathe.  In January I was able to do at least 10 minutes of jogging...last night the longest was 2 minutes.  I almost passed out from the lack of oxygen.  Also, skinny chick jamming at a speed of an 8 next to me made me want to leave!  I could see her side eyeing me and my 4 and the fact that I had to keep slowing down.  All I kept seeing in my head was this happening to her because she was running with her phone in her hand and kept playing around with it!

I did 2 miles in 40 minutes.  I know I am faster outside, but only because I walk faster than I do on the treadmill.  I wanted to cry.  I got in the car and I had to hold back the tears.  I want SO VERY BADLY to be able to run just a fucking MILE!  I want it!  I know if I keep at it, someday I will...I just thought that 4 months into this journey that I would be closer. 

So, here is my NEW plan of action!  I know it is allergy season and this makes my asthma ten times worse.  So, along with my other commitments I am making for the month of April...I need to add that I am going to be DILIGENT in taking ALL my asthma meds!  What do I take?

            1) Advair - twice a day
            2) Combivent - twice a day
            3)  Albuterol - rescue inhaler, take it at least 4 times a day
            4) Singulair - before bed
            5) Claritin - twice a day

And if you think this is alot I use to have a nebulizer for breathing treatments - I haven't had to use it in about 5 years, in fact I threw it out during our move 2 years ago.  Also, the Dr. took me off of Flovent a few months ago...I think at one point in time I was suppose to be taking 8 different medications.  Key word being SUPPOSE TO.....

Usually only #2 and #3 are the only ones I take...if I am running outside I will take #1 about 20 minutes before.  I just REALLY hate being dependent on medication to function.  But, I guess if I am going to make this shit happen I need to do this!

So, I am going back to C25K....I am no longer running in the Bay to Breakers so I can ditch the 10K trainer for now.  I will finish this bad boy if it kills me!