Electric Run - SUCCESS!

I can't believe I haven't posted in over 2 weeks!  I have been so busy! 

First item - this Saturday will be 8 weeks since I have quit smoking....I am soooo glad I have kicked that habit!  I can just imagine how much harder working out would be if I hadn't!

Second - I know I mentioned my dad in my last post...he had a CAT scan done last week - still don't know the results but I am doing a little better emotionally.  Everything is back on track! 

I am still sitting at 25 pounds down....I am really hoping it will be 27 pounds come Friday!!!!!  I was stuck at 20 pounds for the month of Feb and Mar....hit 25 the first week of  April, hit a road bump....so I am hoping this is the week to break through!

FINALLY - I ran my second 5k last Saturday!  I had a blast...was more mentally prepared for this one so it was more enjoyable! I started out rocking the pink....but changed into the race t-shirt when I got it...should have left the pink on though....easier to see in the dark!  LOL!

 I have the best friends....I made it clear to everyone that they DID NOT need to stay with me!  I have been having alot of issues with my asthma because of allergies so I already knew it was going to be a struggle to finish faster than my first 5K!  I also was coming off an old ankle injury flare up - so I wasn't sure how my ankle was going to do since I did NOTHING last week to prepare out of fear of hurting it.  It was at night, it was dark, there were potholes and stupid people throwing glow sticks and THIS GIRL was trying really hard to trip and fall!!!!!

I finished in 43 minutes - which is roughly 5+ minutes faster than my color run in March!  These races didn't track official times so it was hard to get an accurate time - but that is what my Polar told me...I still don't LOVE running....I still walk alot....but I have accepted that my body wasn't designed for running, and it just might take me longer to get to where I can run the whole thing....but I am having a blast trying to get there!

 

Now, I was browsing through my race photos and wanted to share a little side by side with you....

The pictures on the left are from my Color Run on March 2nd, 2013 and the right is from the Electric Run on April 20th, 2013.  Can you believe there is only a 5 pound loss between these?  It looks like so much more!  Well, to me it does.....and if you say no I will hunt you down and junk punch you.  Just kidding, kinda...

Anyways, for all of you who are struggling with the yo-yoing on the scale or a plateau - please remember to take pictures every couple of weeks....this is the affirmation I needed to see, not the number on that lying whore of a scale!

Bad News = Bad Food

So, I am up 3 pounds from last week...no biggie...I am still under my plateau number and I know why I am up.  This week has sucked balls for the most part and I have managed to push off the emotional eating up until last night!

Due to a very tight budget I had to modify my grocery list for the week which left us eating cheaper, unhealthy foods....well, sort of...we had whole wheat pasta, tacos, stir fry and instead of going to the grocery store last night I opted for the "I don't feel like cooking - lets eat out" and had Taco Bell.  Then today for lunch I ate a Turkey BLT and a small side of fries and COMPLETELY skipped breakfast.  I am already getting the "I don't want to go to the gym tonight" blues as well....

I got word yesterday that my dad, who has been really sick lately, had some x-rays of his lungs done as a follow up from a recent hospital stay and they found a black spot.  My mind immediately goes to "FUCK - It's cancer!!!!"  He already has emphysema and a flat diagram....COPD....smokes at least 2 packs a day...so of course this is where my mind goes!  He gets chest x-rays done alot because of his pre-existing conditions so we already know what it is not. 

Anyways...I am really struggling with this for a few different reasons.  I lost my mom in 2004 to a sudden and massive stroke....and my MIL lives over 10 hours away and my dad is really the only grandparent my daughter has ever known...she spends lots of time at his house and just loves him!  I am not ready to deal with a grieving kid just yet!  My grandpa (dad's dad) passed at 64 years of cancer and my uncle passed recently...also in his early sixties of cancer too...my dad is 61 and with a family medical history like his the outlook is grim.  So, mentally I am preparing myself for the worst...I will get my grieving process started so I can hold my shit together if/when the time comes....I also will have my grandmother to take care of when this all happens, she has dementia and is 93 and I swear she will live forever!  I use to joke with my dad that she would probably out live all of us....looks like that might just happen!  I am also a Daddy's girl and the thought of not having him around anymore just breaks my heart...but I also know he is very sick and I have seen him struggle to breathe more this past year than I see myself struggling and I have asthma...he can't even make it up and down his stairs.  He is so damn stubborn that he refuses to give up smoking even though he knows it is killing him...he just has no desire for life and that hurts even more!  I have tried EVERYTHING in the book to change his outlook on life.  *sigh*
I have a party to go tomorrow and Saturday so I know I will go over my calories anyway so I am not trippin - I have still been working out and doing good on that front.  I am trying to keep going because normally I would just go home and go to bed and sleep until the next day so I wouldn't have to think about it. 

I am so glad I have quit smoking and am making healthy changes, I don't ever want my family to have to watch me suffer like my dad is....I don't want to see them suffer emotionally over my poor choices and unhealthy lifestyle either so this motivates me to keep going in my quest for just an overall healthy state of living.

Hug your loved ones ~ you never know when it is going to be their last day, or yours.

XOXO

Back in the Game Bitches!

WOW!  That is all I can say....I am so proud of myself for not giving up!  This week I did EVERYTHING I said I was going to do!  And ya know what!!!!  I am DOWN 4 pounds past my stinking plateau!

This was what I screamed like when I stepped on the scale yesterday!  HOLLA!  Down 25 pounds OFFICIALLY!

Below are my progress pics!

Hard work is paying off!  Can't wait to see the results next month!

And....to celebrate breaking the plateau...I busted this out this morning....

Did week 1 day 2 and 3....BAM!

Just keep swimming ya'll!

~ MUAH ~

Who runs that fast?

I have been trying to "run" for almost 4 months now...and I just feel like I am not getting anywhere.  I mean, I see some improvement but for some reason I feel like I should be farther along. 

I went to the gym last night and ran on the treadmill for the first time in 3 weeks.  And I am sure I sound like a broken record with this...but I just couldn't breathe.  In January I was able to do at least 10 minutes of jogging...last night the longest was 2 minutes.  I almost passed out from the lack of oxygen.  Also, skinny chick jamming at a speed of an 8 next to me made me want to leave!  I could see her side eyeing me and my 4 and the fact that I had to keep slowing down.  All I kept seeing in my head was this happening to her because she was running with her phone in her hand and kept playing around with it!

I did 2 miles in 40 minutes.  I know I am faster outside, but only because I walk faster than I do on the treadmill.  I wanted to cry.  I got in the car and I had to hold back the tears.  I want SO VERY BADLY to be able to run just a fucking MILE!  I want it!  I know if I keep at it, someday I will...I just thought that 4 months into this journey that I would be closer. 

So, here is my NEW plan of action!  I know it is allergy season and this makes my asthma ten times worse.  So, along with my other commitments I am making for the month of April...I need to add that I am going to be DILIGENT in taking ALL my asthma meds!  What do I take?

            1) Advair - twice a day
            2) Combivent - twice a day
            3)  Albuterol - rescue inhaler, take it at least 4 times a day
            4) Singulair - before bed
            5) Claritin - twice a day

And if you think this is alot I use to have a nebulizer for breathing treatments - I haven't had to use it in about 5 years, in fact I threw it out during our move 2 years ago.  Also, the Dr. took me off of Flovent a few months ago...I think at one point in time I was suppose to be taking 8 different medications.  Key word being SUPPOSE TO.....

Usually only #2 and #3 are the only ones I take...if I am running outside I will take #1 about 20 minutes before.  I just REALLY hate being dependent on medication to function.  But, I guess if I am going to make this shit happen I need to do this!

So, I am going back to C25K....I am no longer running in the Bay to Breakers so I can ditch the 10K trainer for now.  I will finish this bad boy if it kills me!