Kicking the Habit

So, I have been smoking since I was 23....I have tried to quit off and on over the past 10 years and it never sticks.  I have decided to quit AGAIN!  I want to quit, it is just so hard when everything pisses you off and you want to cut someone for breathing....I can't take the irratability factor.  I am not a pleasant person to be around.  The last time I tried quitting my daughter screamed "NO...MOMMY, you CAN'T quit!  You are so cranky!"  I am not going to lie, I really enjoy smoking in a social setting...if I could just be a casual smoker that would be great.  But, I need to do this to be able to run better!

Last night I had a "Come to Jesus" with myself while I was struggling on the treadmill.  I have asthma, so that makes it hard enough to run....but I know that by quitting it will make it a little bit easier.  Spring is also around the corner and that is when my asthma gets crazy and if I want to start running outdoors I need to make some serious changes.  So, come Monday (I always start everything on a Monday!) I will be ditching the cigarettes for an e-cig to start.  I have tried Chantix = that gave me the CAH-RAZIEST dreams and every time I would get a whiff of cigarette smoke I would want to vomit!  It was worse than Morning Sickness!  I tried the Patches = Itchy arm and I felt like I was on crack the first few hours of putting one on then wanted to throw up again...and that was the lowest dose!  I have tried the gum = burning sensation in the back of the throat and it tastes like shit!  So, the e-cig it is!  The longest I have ever gone was 8 months....

So, I foresee some blog posts in the future letting out some frustrations due to Nicotine withdrawals...and also imagine it will make the weight loss journey a bit tougher...but I have been at it for 2 months now and have a routine in place.  I will make myself a "Honey-Do" list and when I get the urge to smoke I will work my way down that list!