Catch Up

So, I started my journey in November 2012!  As mentioned in my first post, October of 2012 was my heaviest.  I started out with Atkins for a few weeks ~ lost 7 pounds.  Thanksgiving week and the week after I totally pigged out!  I did Atkins for my husbands sake but soon realized that it is probably the hardest diet for me to stay on.

Around the beginning of December I joined a group of women that inspired me, empowered me and I snapped!  If these women can do it, why can't I?  I read through the posts in this group for HOURS...and finally I got it!  Its not about a number on the scale, its not about doing what everyone else is doing...It is about ME!  What works for ME!  What doesn't work for ME!  So, I signed up on myfitnesspal so I could have a place to log in my food and dug my body bugg out of its hiding spot and got to work!

On December 15th I began the couch to 5K program!  I had attempted to do this at least 4 times before in the past 10 years but NEVER made it past the 3rd week.  Today - I am on week 6!  I had to repeat week 3 over because it is at that point the running time increases...but I concentrated on breathing.  For me the scariest thing is not being able to breathe.  Today ~ I can go about 8 to 10 minutes at a time and if you knew me, you would know that is a HUUUUUUUGE accomplishment!  This is all on the treadmill at a speed of 3.2-3.4.  I know I can walk faster but my focus right now is breathing.  Once I complete it on the treadmill I will take it to the outdoors.  I have been trying to run outside on Saturdays...but the weather isn't always friendly.  I can NOT make it longer than 90 seconds at a time right now...but I know my pace is much faster outside.  I will conquer it!

So far, I have lost 18 pounds.  It has been SLOW!  But that is okay!  I am not really focusing on weighing and measuring my food at the moment...just cooking healthier and as clean as possible.  I know that I will eventually need to start doing this but I have to tackle one thing at a time...and right now that is just not it.  Besides, I am suppose to eat 1700 calories a day....I pretty know by sight what some portions look like and always add a little extra in the diary to account for not measuring/weighing...Another couple weeks and I will probably be at a good point to start.  Also, I am trying to focus on water.  I hate drinking water!  It has no taste!  I still am having my lowcarb Monster in the a.m. (that is my coffee)...but try to get in the min. 64 oz. 

So, as soon as I hit 20 pounds I will post a before and after along with some measurements so anyone who might be reading can compare and hopefully find some inspiration.  I am totally that girl that people say "If SHE can do, so can I!"  Also, since I am a mom I will post about food.  I have been crock potting for three weeks to allow me more time for running.  Tonight, I am going to join a gym!  I am scared as hell because right now I am THAT girl that all those meat head/bimbos like to poke fun at....and I don't like that feeling...which is why I have avoided the gym for 10 years.  I am inching up on 40 yrs. and I will be damned if I will look like the stay puff marshmallow dude!  I am not trying to go out on the town and be a cougar...I am happily married going on 13 years and we have a beautiful daughter who is 11 yrs old.  But I want to teach my daughter some good habits and show her that hard work pays off.  I also want to be feel GOOD about myself and get my confidence back!  I wanna be a frickin ROCKSTAR!